Sunday, December 27, 2009

我是谁

Until you make peace with who you are, you will never be content with what you have.

这句话,是从朋友的冰箱上的磁条装饰物抄下的。
当初,把它抄下的原因很简单:
我清楚,明白它的意思。
我清楚,明白我必须尽快了解我自己是谁。

最近,我无法否认,我越来越不稳定。
原因,只有一个:我不清楚前路怎么走

这个问题,萦绕自己多时。但是,我不曾用心解决,或者想去解决,很消极的认为,总有一个时间点,会自然成为转捩点,让我变得更坚强。这个,就是所谓的鸵鸟心态吧。结果,对于过往非常自负的化学,研究,也变得没有自信。这个,可是自己人生中的最大讽刺。

尤其最近,该来的困扰,还是来了。
整个人因此而变得不安宁。
临睡时,脑子里盘旋着,起床后,第一件在我脑子里的事情,都是同一件。

为此,我开始了一些动作。
我,积极得看书。
我,学习e时代的年轻人,怎么从网上吸取额外的information、
我,开始了与别人交谈
我,开始尽量面带微笑
我,开始多进行思考
总之,我尽量的去展开一个不一样的生活,因为,现在的生活,肯定会让我沉沦。

人生中,遇到瓶颈,就是要不断蜕变,一直到清楚了解自己是谁。
为有这样,你才会珍惜身边的每一样事物。

Until you make peace with who you are, you will never be content with what you have

(今天,是我第一次写部落格时,没有焦虑,没有急躁,可以很顺心的,写出这些句子。或者,这是因为我不再逃避,不再担心被人家了解自己的出境而像以往那般地写文章)




Friday, December 25, 2009

《胜利总在坚持后》

从戴晨志,戴老师的书里,发现这段话:

坎坷,痛苦的人生,
就当作是上天的恩宠吧!
熬过泪水溃堤的生活,
度过那令人窒息的日子,
老天会让我们从坎坷的生命,
淬炼出更坚毅的人生。

这个,就是大家必须学习的。学不会,不要紧,就再哭一次,然后继续站起来学习。
有一天,一定会学成的。
要不然,就到天堂,继续学习。
呵呵

Monday, December 21, 2009

重复

故事,在没有警示下,再一次重复。我没有准备好,可是,必须再次面对同一样的结局。

怪只怪,当初太相信自己,一定能够脱离恶性循环。

Friday, December 18, 2009

运转

究竟,是地球绕着太阳公转,还是太阳绕着地球运行?

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

时运

我想,最近我时运好低。

无端端的,梦见鬼屋,而且,还是同一间,相隔一两个星期再次出现。更讨厌的是,竟然梦见认识的人死亡。。。

结果,这几天,被惊醒:
1. 上午8点,竟然听见有人在唤我的名字。。。
2. 连续几个晚上,半夜三更惊醒,然户还误以为自己的椅子是骷髅头

现在,患上感冒,伤风,晚上睡不好。。

更糟糕的是,今天做实验,化学药剂不够用,预算的时间不足够。
最气煞的,就是才一离开休息室,外头立刻下起滂沱大雨,结果淋个落汤鸡。。。

时运低的我,应该相信老人的话,到庙里上香拜佛,还是相信人生不如意,十之八九???
呵呵

Monday, December 14, 2009

风云2

看了《风云2》,我给朋友们发了以下简讯:

不论你们多么有钱,多么有时间,千万不要看《风云2》。看了后,我保证你们会急着回家睡觉,希望一觉醒来后把它彻底忘记,永世不出现在你的脑海。

呵呵。有点搞笑。可是,在电影院里,我一直纳闷,故事何时结束。

Saturday, December 12, 2009

震撼

自己,一直以为,已经准备好了,能够随时随地的接受晴天霹雳的消息。可是,我错了。虽然只是一个不经意,我却完全失去了防守,近乎崩溃。当故事成真时,我真的无法招架。。。

人,不应该那么高估自己。

Friday, December 11, 2009

2009年12月10日

之前的准备功夫,就这样的前功尽弃。

无奈(伤心吗?)

人,还是专心自己的前路。

Thursday, December 10, 2009

半年的网络故事

自从来槟城修读硕士,我喜欢上一篇网络故事。

这个网络故事,不是捏造的,而是作者这几年的经历。他的手笔简单,朴实,完全没有造作的感觉。

然而,最重要,最吸引我的,却是他的三年人生故事。虽然,结尾不尽如人意,但是,至少他拥有过。看看自己,一篇空白。。。我不奢望能够拥有像他这班不一样的经历,但求能够拥有属于自己的故事。

目前的我,不可能拥有。
除非,我愿意把枷锁卸下。

Thursday, October 22, 2009

德文(一)

自费学了一个学期的德文,发现到,原来,英文在欧洲语系里头,算是较为简单的语文了。

就说简单的present tense(现在式语句)了,德文里头动词的变化可就比英语有看头了。

英文里头,动词会因为主语的不同而有些许改变,就加ses,还是ies。可是,德文,就不同了。以下是几个例子,让大伙见识德文的变化。


go

do

read

I

go

do

read

you

go

do

read

he, she, it

goes

does

reads

we

go

do

read

you (plural)

go

do

read

they

go

do

read






gehen

mögen

lesen

ich (I)

gehe

mag

lese

du (you)

gehst

magst

liest

er (he), sie (she), es (it)

geht

mag

liest

wir (wir)

gehen

mögen

lesen

ihr (you, plural)

geht

möge

lest

sie (they)

gehen

mögen

lesen

Sie (you, formal, singular)

gehen

mögen

lesen

德文里头,动词的变化,就是有规律的改变(就如gehen(go)的变化),也可以出现无规律的改变(就如mögen(do),lesen(read))。

当然,还有一些更奇怪的变化,如把动词一分为二。还有,听说,第二阶段的德文专注在语法,会更难!不过,我有兴趣面对这个挑战,如果,我有足够的时间。呵呵

Sunday, October 18, 2009

回报

发现,自己已经不懂得要求回报,也不敢奢望回报。

Monday, October 5, 2009

四川变脸

今天,我观赏了四川变脸。
我为了一句简单的台词,会心一笑。

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Green Lane McD

我疯,可是,不开心。

Saturday, September 26, 2009

最近,发现自己已经不再擅长写一些长篇的文章,并且习惯了简单的两三行字。

看来,有必要再修炼了。。。

要不然,我可以请枪手!呵呵(聪明人的想法,果然不一样)

G-Force

昨天,看了G-Force,一部叙述小老鼠救地球的故事。

超级佩服现在的科技,把老鼠们拟人得好完美。每一个动作,每一个表情都那么真,而且,出乎意料,惊叹加上爆笑,不枉我花了RM10在电影院观赏。

不过,剧情,就真的值得我们这些人类多思考了。一只高智能的鼹鼠因为自己的家庭被破坏,所以对人类报复。然而,由于老鼠朋友的劝导,让它想起两位一直以来照顾自己的人类,他放弃了。

然而,我们人类呢?就连这只鼹鼠会感恩图报,我们却不曾间断的破坏地球。虽然地球遍体鳞伤,我们却视若无睹,持续我们所谓的“伟大的人文发展”。树,一棵棵倒下。河,一条条发臭。冰,一块块融化。

看来,只有陷入万劫不复之境,人类才能大彻大悟,可是为时已晚了。

唉。。。

Thursday, September 24, 2009

部落格

这一两天,闲来没事(还是有事当没事?),到处去看看朋友们的部落格。

虽然,大家的文章,就是平凡。
可是,平凡中各带自己的风格,叙述自己简单的故事,就是读者要寻找的感觉。

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

永远的自我封禁,虽然消极,却是最好的方法。

好想,拥抱大海,拥抱森林,奔向草原。。。

Saturday, September 12, 2009

怎么会是一个不眠的夜?

清晨,割胶工人正要出门之时,我刚醒来。

匆匆吃了早餐,我就前往学校了。抵达学校的实验室时,大约是早上五点一刻。那之后,我就没有一刻是闲着的:准备化学剂,收集实验样本,批改学生的功课,阅读新闻等。。。这样忙忙碌碌一直到晚上八点四十五分,我才关上实验室的门。

回到家,我并没有马上休息,因为答应自己,要煮一道简单但是好吃的晚餐给自己。处理蔬菜,煮面,也耗了不少时间。不间断忙碌十七个小时,平常的我,已经疲惫不堪,根本不可能还在这个时候上网,写部落格。

可是,今天,我就是觉得有些事情放不下,放不开,看不开。。。。累积许久了,没得宣泄。接下来该怎么办?我清楚,也不清楚。人说,船到桥头自然直,可是,我担心,船,在途中沉了,都还没见到桥头。。。

Monday, September 7, 2009

I Corrupt All Cops

前个晚上,由于睡不着,我选择观看《黑金帝国》(I Corrupt All Cops)。

看完之后,震惊,是我的唯一感受:原来,警队的贪污腐败可以那么的严重,应该说目无法纪。更重要的是,这是血淋淋的事实,曾经发生在香港,震撼香港社会的事件。

可是,只要想一想,这不就发生在马来西亚吗?贪污腐败,不是警队的专利,上至首相,下至普通政府官员都把它当成我国不可或缺的文化。或许,你可以认为,这是一项对国家领导人的指责,可是却没有人不赞同这个指责。它的存在非常重要,因为它勾勒了我国的一部分文化。如果说,少了贪污腐败,我国的官僚文化就没有了特色,这一点都不夸张。

可是,当时的英属香港和现在的马来西亚不一样。由于英政府决意要肃贪,所以,无论当时的香港皇家警队多么不愿意,甚至群起罢工导致治安真空,侵袭廉政公署,他们注定还是要被清理,因为,大权在握的是英政府。英政府的立场是非常鲜明及强硬的。

回来马来西亚,肃贪的口号喊了六年,可是,政府部门却越来越贪。反贪污局升格为反贪污委员会,不但没有遏制贪污,反而可以说,因为其不中立性,导致他可以被誉为助长国阵政府的贪污腐败。另外,由于国阵政府的领导人都被认为涉及贪污,更不可能要求反贪污委员会全力肃贪,断自己的财路嘛!这就是我国和英属香港的不同了。

所以,在我国,为了打造更好的马来西亚,人民完全不能依赖现有政府了。唯有吸取308的经验,强调人民主权,人民透过手上的一票,威迫政府认真实施政策;要不然,就甭给面子,换个管家好了。



我真诚希望,我国的反贪污委员会,可以媲美香港的廉政公署。

Monday, August 31, 2009

六则笑话

以下是我的朋友发给我的。我还蛮喜欢的,因为不止好笑,也清楚表达国人对现任政府的极度不满。希望,你也会喜欢。

1、Pak Lah, Najib And Sami Vellu 同坐直升機巡視。
Sami Vellu 說:'如果我丟一千塊下去,撿到那一個人一定很高興。'
Najib 說:'如果我丟兩張五百元下去,那就有兩個人很高興了。'
Pak Lah 說:'如果我丟十張一百元下去,就有十個人很高興了。'
這個時候 ........
駕駛員喃喃自語地說:'何不把自己都丟下去,讓兩千一百萬人都高興呢?'


2、Sami Vellu 希望提高自己的聲望,想要發行一款有自己肖像的郵票.....
發行過了一個多月之後,Sami Vellu 想要問看看視察看看銷路如何.....
Sami Vellu : '銷售情形怎麼樣?'
郵政總局局長:'還算不錯,只不過常常有人抱怨黏不牢!
Sami Vellu : '怎麼會呢?' Sami Vellu 隨手拿了一張郵票,塗了一點口水在郵票背面,便試貼在信封上 ....
Sami Vellu :' 這樣不是黏得很緊嗎?'
郵政總局局長: '可是......大家....都把口水吐在正面啊 ......'


3、深夜,Najib 去買宵夜,結果在路上遇到搶匪 …
搶匪拿著槍指著 Najib 說:' 把身上的錢交出來!'
Najib 勃然大怒說:'你這什麼態度?我可是堂堂Vice Prime Minister 耶!'
搶匪:'喔,那……把我的錢還來。 '


4、某天,Prime Minister 、Parliment members...等大官一起參加一個會議,結果發生連環車禍,送至醫院急救,記者們聞風趕至醫院....
稍久,醫生出來了,記者忙著問'醫生!醫生!Prime Minister 有救嗎?'
醫生沮喪的搖搖頭說:'唉 ..Prime Minister 沒救了...'
記者又問:'醫生!醫生!Najib 有救嗎?'
醫生又沮喪的搖搖頭說:'唉 ...也沒救了...'
記者就問:'那 ...到底誰有救?'
醫生精神一振說: 'Malaysia 有救了!'


5、有一天Sami Vellu 往某家精神病院視察,所有的病人都站在走廊上高聲歡呼,
Sami Vellu 萬歲!Sami Vellu 萬歲!
只有一名病人面無表情,對Sami Vellu 不理不睬。
Sami Vellu 看到了,問院長說:'那位病人為什麼不對我歡呼呢?'
院長:'因為他今天精神非常正常。'


6、一輛競選車載著Sami Vellu 競選團隊開到鄉村去造勢,不幸在山間小路上翻車。
正在農田作活的老農民看見這情景,就趕到出事地點,可是車上的人都死光了。
于是他挖了一個土坑,把幾個政客都埋了。
過了幾天,負責事故勘察的警察找到那個老農民,問他那幾個政客到哪里去了,老農民說己經埋了。
警察趕緊追問:'他們都死了嗎? '
老農回答說:'嗯…,我看到Sami Vellu 在我埋他的時候大叫說他還沒死。'
警察說:'那你怎麼也把他埋了?'
老農說:'你知道的嘛? 這個Sami Vellu 從不說實話。

Sunday, August 30, 2009

My hope for this 52 Merdeka

Guys, I like this article, which is written by the Treasurer-General of PKR cum the Parliament member of Selayang, YB William Leong Jee Keen. Please drop your comment after reading it. Thanks.

What Independence?

On this August 31st, we shall celebrate the 52nd anniversary of the British leaving our country. I did not say we are celebrating the 52nd anniversary of our independence. This is because our people have not enjoyed real liberty, democracy or justice. Without liberty, democracy or justice there is no independence.

In these 52 years the oppressive rule of a foreign colonial master has been replaced by the oppressive rule of a local master. They rule with an iron fist. They use the same instruments of oppression as the British did. They use the ISA, the Sedition Act, the Printing Press & Publications Act and detention without trial. The freedom of assembly, the freedom of expression and the freedom to live a life of dignity free from fear and oppression are illusions.

In these 52 years the yoke of a foreign colonial master has been replaced by the yoke of a local master. They use the same policy of “divide and rule”. They survive by feeding off racialism. They survive by fostering divisiveness. They survive by preaching religious intolerance.

What Teoh Beng Hock died for

Malaysians will not know real independence, will not be free and will not enjoy democracy unless this oppressive regime is thrown out. They must be thrown out just like Teoh Beng Hock was thrown out from the 14th floor of the MACC office. We must not forget Teoh Beng Hock. We must not forget what he stood for. More importantly, we must not forget what he died for. He lived to help Malaysians in the struggle against corruption and oppression. He died so that our struggle can live. He died fighting for justice.

What Justice?

Without justice we cannot say we have liberty or democracy or equal rights. We cannot say we have liberty or freedom when Tamil schools have no tables and chairs. When in Sabah and Sarawak, schools have no electricity. A child that is illiterate is not free. We cannot say we have democracy or equal rights for women, when a Chinese girl with 9A1s cannot enter a university. A girl without a job has no rights. We cannot say we have freedom of choice when a man cannot feed his family. A starving man has no choice.

Liberty, democracy and freedom are meaningless words when there is no justice. Justice is political liberty. Justice is economic independence. Justice is equality. There is no political liberty when you vote out of fear. There is no economic independence when you give your support out of fear your son’s scholarship will be withdrawn or your license will be withdrawn. There is no freedom of choice when you elect a party out of fear for your contract or your business. This is what has been happening in these 52 years and this will continue if we do not act. There will be many more Teoh Beng Hocks and many more Port Klang Free Zones if we do not stop them.

What One Malaysia?

Najib says he wants One Malaysia. Teoh Beng Hock’s death has shocked us back to reality. We cannot just listen to rhetoric. We must look at the deeds. When we look, we see what has been done, is a far cry from what has been said. The Perak government has been stolen from its people. Najib has now declared his intention to grab the Selangor government.

The MACC is a tool. It is used to de-stabilize the Pakatan Rakyat government. Teoh Beng Hock was interrogated throughout the night. He was grilled for buying RM2,400 worth of Malaysian flags. No one has been grilled when PKFZ loss RM12.6 billion. The MACC officers are raiding the Pakatan Exco members’ office so often they are becoming fixtures. Cars and cows and Malaysian flags have become a fixation of the MACC. MACC has not shown the same enthusiasm when it comes to BN assemblymen who used up their annual allocation of RM500,000 in 2 months before the general elections. The MACC has also not shown any interest in the trips by the former chief minister and his family to study the river system in Disney Land. There is no investigation into how the former chief minister can afford to purchase a multi-million ringgit mansion that is beyond the means of a chief minister’s salary.

Barisan Nasional machinery is now on the move. Books attacking Anwar Ibrahim and Khalid Ibrahim are being distributed. The authors of these books are sowing the seeds of hatred and contempt. They desecrate the Hindu’s sacred cow in a protest filled with bigotry. They protest against a Hindu temple built 150 years ago when the area was a plantation that today, just like its devotees, the estate workers, had been left behind by development. They have forgotten Muslims were invited to practice their religion amongst the people of Yathrib. They are beating the drums of race and religion and the tone is becoming harsher with each beat.

The people must now decide. There cannot be any fence sitters. There is no middle ground.

When Teoh Beng Hock was thrown out, the people of Malaysia was thrown together with him into the sea of political troubles. Whether Malaysia will sink or swim is now up to the people. The people must decide once and for all what is right and what is wrong. There cannot be a neutral ground.

Dante said:

“ The hottest place in Hell is reserved for those who remain neutral in times of moral crisis.”

Today in Malaysia there is no place for neutrality. Malaysians must make their choice now.

If we want to know what is evil and what is right, we must use our moral compass. It is only when we know the direction where justice lies can we know where we must stand. Do we want to choose liberty and justice which are always right or do we want to choose corruption, hatred, arrogance and oppression which are always wrong? The choice is clear. Every Malaysian must make his stand.

When you stand for liberty we stand with you.

I want to tell you that when you stand for liberty, we will stand with you. When you defend democracy, we will be your shield. When you fight for justice, we will be your sword. We will always be with you.

They assaulted Anwar Ibrahim. They threw him in jail for 6 long years. They call him a traitor and worse. But Anwar will always be here to fight for you.

They hounded and harassed Lim Kit Siang. They detained him in Kamunting. But Lim Kit Siang will always be here to stand by you.

They attacked Tok Guru Nik Aziz and try to humiliate him. But Tok Guru Nik Aziz will always be here to protect you.

We have been tested. They have thrown everything they have at us but we are still standing and we are still here.

We were here in November 2007 when a sea of yellow marched for a free and fair election. This was BERSIH. We were here in December when thousands in orange marched for equality. This was Makal Sakthi. This was the ripple that started the tsunami. Barisan Nasional was swept out of 5 states. Since then Barisan Nasional has become more extreme in their policies. They have become more brutal with the people.

When we Hope

So on 1st August, the lovers of justice and liberty marched again. Again Barisan Nasional responded with violence and brutality. 638 people including women and children were arrested. Despite the police shutting down the city, despite the many road blocks and barricades, despite the arrest of those wearing black, the number who succeeded in gathering far exceeded my expectations. But the size of the gathering cannot be bigger than my hope for Malaysia. My hope is for every one that braved the tear gas and water cannons there will be many thousands more. We want hundreds of thousands to march with us. We will march from under the shadow of fear into the light of justice. My hope is that the flame burning in each who gathered that day will kindle the hearts and minds of many thousands more. Malaysians will find the courage to stand up for principles and convictions. We must stand up for what is right.

This is my hope and this is the hope of all Malaysians. Truth, love and justice will prevail over the forces of hate and oppression. This will only happen when the silent majority refuses to remain silent anymore. This will only happen when the voice of the majority is finally heard. We must be confident that oppression and corruption cannot endure. We must take comfort that truth and justice will always prevail. But this can only be achieved if we fight for it. We must fight today for a better tomorrow.

Looking Back in the Future

Do not let our children look back and say that these are dark days. Let them say that these are great days. These are the most glorious days that our country ever had. These days will be remembered as the days when we were called, we answered. We stood up. We stood together shoulder to shoulder irrespective of race or religion. We fought and we prevailed. Each of us played our part according to our strengths. Our children and their children will look back on these days and celebrate it as the days we became ONE NATION. These days will be etched in our Nation’s history as the days we won over injustice and oppression. These will be the days we celebrate THE TRUE MERDEKA.

Thank you, Xie xie , vanakam.

William Leong Jee Keen
29th August 2009.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

猜测

我喜欢《猜测》。

整个黎明整个下午
整个晚上整个明天都是你
一种思念一种心情
一种担心一种期待整个包围我的心
我的希望在雨天后被冷落在寒风中
每一颗眼泪只为你相信真心不会变
从前到现在渴望得到你的解答
让我猜测你的伤心你的激动
让我知道想你的心有没有用
牵着你的手心我的心情
在那一个深深的夜里
让我猜测你的心思你的行动
让我知道犹豫是否在你心中
听着你的呼吸我的思绪
在那一个深深的夜里
猜不透的你

我讨厌猜测。

Thursday, August 6, 2009

一句话

这么一句话,让我觉得,战战兢兢的走在路上,还能感受一丝的温暖。

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

新装

过去的服装,还真的好丑啊!!!!
真不知道为何,我竟然可以tahan那么久!!!!

今天,在屋友的提点下,我成功换了部落格的皮肤,以新面目见人。
对了,屋友是。。。 。。。抱歉,大家都知道,我记性不好。。。
但是,我记得她是美女。

第一天教tutorial

拿了fellowship后,就一直等待今天,教导第三年生,同时间又可以看看自己教书的能力是否有所提升。

进班了,就一直等待学生们。怎么知道,名单上只有14个名字,可是,竟然有16个人进来!天哪!这些人都21岁了,进班前,就不能检查时间表吗?更糟糕是,那两个学生竟然本来就意识到自己早已进错班,却可以装作若无其事的坐着。

。。。。。。

上午十一点,课,正式开始。
Can anyone come to the front, show me the solution of question 1(a)?
天!就中六学过的数学,怎么没有人可以给我一个象样的graph呢?再说,大一时,他们还有上数学课,这么简单的题目,应该不会错吧。。。。

Why there is no response? Am I talking to walls or sheep?
以前,老师就是这样为我们担心;今天,换成我为他们担心。没有反应,是完全明白,还是摸不着头脑???

不过,还是蛮欣慰,因为,还有学生愿意问问题,我才可以知道,他们的掌握度到了哪里?

当然,更安慰的是,学生们之后给我好评。哈哈。

Monday, July 27, 2009

朋友的部落格

昨天,还有今天,就特地的逗留在朋友的部落格。
喜欢他的部落格的工整,简单的配搭,舒服的感觉。
还有,那一首曲子,让人定下心。
当然,部落格右上角的风铃,虽然只是时而响起,却扮演好了它的角色。

我想,这几天,我应该会让它成为我的私人播放机,放着我喜欢的歌曲,享受窗口边的风铃声,还有那鼓励的掌声。

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

John 15: 18-25

If the world HATES you, remember that the world hated me before you. This would not be so if you belonged to the world, because the world loves its own. But you are not of the world since I chosen you from the world; because of this the world HATES you.

Remember what I told you: the servant is not greater than his master; if they persecuted me, they will persecute you, too. If they kept my word, they keep yours as well. All this they will do to you for the sake of my name because they do not know the One who sent me.

If I had not come to tell them, they would have no sin, but now they have no excuse for their sin. Those hate me hate my Father.

If I had not done among them what no one else has ever done, they would have no sin. But after they have seen all this, they hate me and my Father, and the words written in their law become true: THEY HATED ME WITHOUT CAUSE.


I quote this paragraph from Bible, just simply I like it.

从马六甲归来

回到槟城,人,真的累了。我还是万般叮嘱自己,必须打开电脑,发一封电邮给仍在雪隆奋斗的同志们,望他们多照顾自己,注意安全,不希望再有一个赵明福。是的,我真担心,我还要在驱车赶回雪隆,出席任何一个朋友的葬礼。。。

Funeral of Beng Hock

Monday, July 20, 2009

Sunday, July 19, 2009

阴霾的周末

几经挣扎,终于决定回到巴生谷,为死因不明的朋友,明福,做一些事情,希望可以让他的死,水落石出。

回到家后,只作片刻休息,就驱车前往双威酒店,和战友们一起收集签名,希望政府会附顺民意,马上成立真正独立的皇家委员会,彻查此事件,把相关人都绳之以法。可是,整个人就是提不起精神。昨天至今,能够挤出笑容,已经是很难的事情。最糟糕的,还是时常出现鼻尖一酸的情况,根本不敢发言,也不愿多谈,深怕泪水决堤。老实说,至今,还是不能接受朋友的过世。。。

另外,由于自己是大学生,要抛头露面,难免对现有恶名昭彰的大专法令有所顾忌。

词穷,没法写完,就此停笔。。。

Thursday, July 16, 2009

路上走好,明福

昨天看见新闻时,知道朋友被反贪污委员会带走,没有打电话鼓励他,支持他。
现在,要这么做,已经太迟了。。。

意外,自杀,还是他杀,至今,没有下文。可是,有关单位在其家人面临此生离死别,没有一丝鼻酸,没有一丝惋惜;
有的,依旧是马来西亚执法部门的懒散,怠慢,拖延及尝试隐瞒。

反贪污委员会的官员也应该是人。他们怎么就没有想过,假设,有一天,他们的亲人也突然撒手人寰,他们不也会无法接受,希望相关部门可以快速处理,以便至爱的亲人可以入土为安?那么,他们就不能抱有这样的同理心,协助明福的家人吗?

由于大马人的纵容,我国的警方已经练就金钟罩,可以选择目无王法,无视别人的要求。

大马人,你们应该也看过,阅读过很多报章,知道很多人都在监狱里,还是警方或其他政府单位的拘留或软禁下惨死,而且,不得任何合理的解释。你们是否依旧允许这样的事件无至今的上演,直到,有一天,事情发生在你得身上时,你才后悔?

一切,交由你们自行定夺。

明福,怀念你。。。

Saturday, July 11, 2009

不是你的,就不是你的

人一出身,就是一部戏的开始。做为自己生命中的主角,就只是在把剧本的内容呈现出来。

编剧,导演,都是上帝。

所以,既然是跟着剧本演出,肯定不能跳脱。自己要的东西,也就因此可遇而不可求。

。。。。。。

Thursday, July 2, 2009

时光

人在不同的时间点,就会有不同的心情。开心,痛苦,悲伤,笑翻天,亢奋,任君选择。

做梦了几个月,是时候起身,刷刷牙,洗把脸,整装出发。
接下来的生活,又不一样了,要快点适应。 ^^
谨记这么一句老掉牙,但是威力无穷:改变不了世界,就改变自己咯。

Saturday, June 20, 2009

闲言闲语

讨厌闲言闲语,让我不懂得如何过生活。

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

培训营结束了

为期两个星期的辩论圈培训营结束了。

在出席这个营之前,就已经抱着负面的看法,认为学弟妹们应该会让人失望。确实,他们真的是让我感觉失望。

然而,可喜的是,两个星期的相处,两个星期的从旁协助,我不认为我把时间浪费在他们身上:至少,我看见他们有些许的进步,有越来越认真的态度。态度,往往决定别人如何看待你。另外,他们会珍惜学长们的付出。还记得有些人哭了,因为不想让教练的努力付诸东流。(可能,教练也故意让自己生病,好让辩论员内疚。好阴哦!)

辩论圈来到这里,应该是时候改变了。要么,就制度上改革,要么,就来个大转向,从新思考辩论圈未来的经营理念和模式。

Friday, May 22, 2009

伸出援手

每年的这个时候,都是辩论圈办培训营的良机。原因无他:大学放长假,学生有时间,能够集体培训。今年,还是不例外。

回想起过去自己成为培训营领队的时候,多么的渴望有人相助,成为自己的副手。愿望也成真了。副手的出现,自然帮忙处理了很多事情,压力也有了人分担。

今天,看见自己的学弟独自撑起培训营,不禁伸出援手。没有其他原因,就只是希望有人和他分担。

Monday, May 18, 2009

梦想

当梦想因先天局限而不能圆,你会怎么选择?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Penang 5th Avenue 五条路

过去在槟城修读学士学位的时候,没有真正的游览过槟城,还真是惭愧。所以,今天就在送朋友,丽萍回家之时,选择了和她一起从码头走回五条路-麻雀虽小,五脏俱全的小地方。

一路上,我们仨人到姓氏桥,瞧一瞧,了解这个“世界文化遗产”的主要部分。除了一间间老板屋,长长的板桥,偶尔扑鼻而来的烂泥味,我还真不懂那里有什么值得全人类为它着迷的地方。或许,就是那种心态-有了,不会珍惜。无论如何,这个姓氏桥肯定的,见证了槟城的发展史,蕴含着先贤飘洋南来,苦心经营的毅力。就凭这点,它绝对有资格与槟城其他的古迹,互补长短,在国际舞台争艳,让世人对我国社会的复杂性,包容性为之惊叹(虽然,执政联盟提出的马来主权论导致国家进入纷争。可是,普罗大众都清楚,民间的包容,谅解是不是一天砌成的,其根基可是非常的稳固)。

其实,重点还是我心中的Penang 5th Avenue。它没有美国5th Avenue的繁荣,华丽,奢侈。这里,有的是所谓的社会低下阶层,过着朴实,简单,和谐的生活。其实,还蛮喜欢五马路,因为,几栋廉价组屋,楼下的商店保罗万有:吃的、喝的、用的、穿的,赌的、看病的、寄信的,根本就什么都不缺。难怪,朋友说五马路的居民根本就不需要离开那里,俨然成为一个小镇。最最重要的,好多美食,任君选择!今后,只要有机会,我一定会舍近求远,费时半小时到五马路用餐。另外的原因是有种纯朴的华人风味。

今天这么出游,我相信,槟城还有好多景点是我还未到访的(当然,这个所有人都知道,别白目!)。接下来,期待朋友带我到榴莲园任吃榴莲,到Pantai Kerachut一游。生活,就是要有惊喜,才能活得更开心。

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

My Study

It has been some times friends keep asking me same questions.

"Have you started your Master study now?", "Have you started to attend any course?", "How many years do you need to complete the study?" and others which bring to above similiar meanings.

Here, I need to clarify my situation.

Yes, I will study my Master soon in USM, but yet a registered student now. I plan to register myself in July, after USM Fellowship granted. It means, I'm NOT a student right now. In order to justify my appearance in USM to doing research, I'm paid now to work as an assistant research officer under my co-supervisor's project. This indicates that my research is on track now.

However, I have no idea when I can complete my Master study. I do not need to attend any course in USM, but just to carry out laboratory work and doing some literature research. If everything is on a smooth ride, I may graduate after 2-year time.

So, I hope with this clarification, you have acquanted yourself with my research Master.

Monday, May 11, 2009

霹雳州务大臣尼查是合法大臣!

带着疲惫的身心回到家,只想上网,看看新闻,然后倒在床上,呼噜大睡去。
可是,霹雳州宪政危机的最新进展,让我精神抖擞!
原任民联大臣尼查被高庭宣判为合法的大臣,并且勒令国阵非法霹雳州政府即时搬离州政府大厦!痛快!痛快!
我想,最高兴的不是我,而是百万的霹雳子民。纷扰了3个月,他们终于可以再次拥抱开明的民联霹雳大臣!

虽然,这个裁决可以被挑战,国阵依旧有机会翻身,可是这给了人民一些希望:至少,我们有些法官不再慑服于巫统的霸权,正确诠释州宪法条文,做出不利国阵的判决。希望,伸张正义的不是这位高庭法官,Abdul Aziz Abdul Rahim罢了,而是所有的法官,尤其是有巫统背景的最高法院首席大法官Zaki。身为法官,他绝对有义务放下他和巫统的姐妹情深,还原所有的宪法和法律条文。

Mother Day

又是母亲节,我这个不孝儿不懂得表达感激的一天。
从来不懂得说“母亲节快乐”的我,只能在这个小天地里,给我伟大的母亲,献上以下的短片。


妈,母亲节快乐。

Saturday, May 9, 2009

1 Black Malaysia

BLACK
Is the colour of my motherland MALAYSIA!
BLACK
Is the colour of my beloved MALAYSIA!
BLACK
Is the colour of my eyes, hair and skin.
BLACK
Is the colour that drapes my moaning being.

BLACK
Is the fury I feel!
BLACK
Is the Silver State that is dealt a lethal raw deal!
BLACK
Is the blood that is bled from democracy!
BLACK
Is the colour of Malaysia's sky and sea!

Fight against 1 BLACK MALAYSIA!
Push for Democracy FIRST!
Demand for Election NOW!

created by my friend, Karen Goh

Friday, May 8, 2009

My first blog, dedicated to 507 Perak Fiasco 霹雳州的州殇


我们的国家,我们执政了52年的国阵政府,怎么越来越不了解宪法和法律?
在法庭尚未裁决谁才是真正的霹雳州务大臣,竟然召开州议会!
在还未得到议长的许可下,州议会秘书竟然批准所有国阵非法政府的动议!
虽然议长尚在州议会,不谙法律的叛将州议长许美凤公然越权,通过撤换州议长的动议!

以下的片段,是由我的朋友所摄录。这些画面,是我们重要的教材。吸取昨天的教训,铭记于心中。时候到来的时候,我们必须给没有王法的国阵政府知道,他们必须为今天的所作所为而付出沉重的代价。